I really hate that I have to spend one month alone wondering if you are sleeping well, eating well and if anyone is bullying you. Part of me hates you so much for doing silly things and leaving me out here and part of me just worries sick. I guess when we said in the past that we have to go through every obstacles together, this was the big one that caught us by surprise.
Day two and i'm already crying like mad here wishing i could do something to change all these but who am I? I'm just your girlfriend I can't make anything miraculously happen. Everyone wishes that you become someone better when you come back out but all I really wish for is you out here with me. Good or bad, it doesnt matter. Just need you here with me, through everything.
And i dont know if i'm just pure unlucky and this is a test for me but people dont usually ask about you but after something like this happen, i see people who are close to you or people just start asking where are you. I have to lie i have to pretend, but this is the worst lie and the worst fake smile i ever have to put up.
I didnt really give you much but just a big head after this relationship began, and i know that myself. I definitely cant undo no shit but well, i want you to have a happier and enjoyable life when youre our. I'll do what i promise to do for you before you come out and of course, though it's a little late, we're still gonna celebrate our 2 years anniversary.
I'm gonna say this once, dont you ever dare miss out on our anniversary again, i will slaughter you. Yes Nicholas Young Hoong Pan, i'm sending you a death threat. You better keep that in mind!
I love you, and you always knew that. But you dont know, that i'll love you for life (:
P.S. I'm still angry at you because you're missing out on our second anniversary asshole.
