Back home from baby's place. Feeling as crappy as ever. No mood for anything. Just feel like shit. I don't even have the mood to go out, seriously. Hating life x infinity now. i need something to do, I feel like damn sians lately. Sighs.
Part of me feel like giving up on some things in life, because I feel like I'm no longer needed or anything. So like, what's the point? A life without expectations is meaningless, and a life with expectations leads to disappointment. So how the hell am I suppose to live? Complicated bullshit.
Use to dream of having the best wedding on Earth with you, but right now. Even having a wedding with you seem difficult. I don't know if you can continue leaving like this and neither can I. I want you to want me, y'know? Sighs, shan't talk about it already. Signing off. Bye.
